BEINGTHEO

Say their names.

kimpulses:

Charlotte Bacon, 6;
Daniel Barden, 7;
Rachel Davino, 29;
Olivia Engel, 6;
Josephine Gay, 7;
Ana M. Marquez-Greene, 6;
Dylan Hockley, 6;
Dawn Hocksprung, 47;
Madeline F. Hsu, 6;
Catherine V Hubbard, 6;
Chase Kowalski, 7;
Jesse Lewis, 6;
James Mattioli, 6;
Grace McDonnell, 7;
Anne Marie Murphy, 52
Emile Parker, 6;
Jack Pinto, 6;
Noah Pozner, 6;
Caroline Previdi, 6;
Jessica Rekos, 6;
Avielle Richman, 6;
Lauren Russeau, 30;
Mary Sherlach, 56;
Victoria Soto, 27;
Benjamin Wheeler, 6;
Allison N. Wyatt, 6

Happy Birthday, Paul!

Best wishes to you, my dear friend. On your birthday, and everyday! 

Love, Theo

FIRST DAY OF FALL

I’m in the process of organizing my Dad’s papers. He died 5 years ago. I was able to take the stacks of typed pages and the dozen or more spiral notebooks out of their house prior to Mom’s death.

Dad desperately wanted to have his story told. He spoke to school groups all over the State, reaching out to the young students about the importance of life. He wanted to instill a sense of love, kindness, peace to these kids. To impress upon them how fortunate they were to have what they had, parents, food, the basics.

Because, you see, when he was the same age, he had nothing. He was a Concentration Camp Survivor. Dad could never come to terms as to why he was allowed to survive, or why the Holocaust happened. His mind remained there for his entire life.

Today, I’ve got to finally face what I’ve avoided. The reality, his hand written and typed words, details, memories from that time. For legal reasons, I’ve got to copy the papers in my possession and give them to one of my siblings. For whatever reason I’m having to face this, it’s time. Long overdue. But it stills makes me feel tired, heavy with the knowledge that it’s going to be a couple of days filled with pain.

I believe it was Hemingway who wrote of Fall being a season symbolic of mourning. I’ll do the work with those words in mind. 

I Love That Fella So.

He’s in ICU. If he bleeds internally tonight, they’ll do emergency surgery to remove the polyp and take out at least some portion of his colon. Otherwise, they have tentatively scheduled surgery for tomorrow at 3:30 PM.

My man has had two open heart bypass surgeries. A triple and a quad. Leaving him with narrow veins and chances of heart attack, risk of stroke and bleeding out. He continues to joke, loves to tell the nurses that we’re newlyweds. Married only 2 years after living together for 30+

He is my life. And I am his.